Well folks, as some as you may noticed by some of my postings I have not been a Happy Person for the latter half of 2003. I've even had some suicidal thoughts too.

Yesterday was my 25th Birthday and I swear I had a revelation. I realized that all of the problems I've been obsessing over are not that bad. On the news I was hearing of people that have had worse things happening to them, including one kid who got killed in a fire recently.
I've also been spending my time unemployed by hangin out more with my younger brother. He recently shared with me that when I was working he barely saw me and hated it. I've also had more time to hang out with my friends and doing things that I love. I fortunately have a mom who is extremely understanding. She doesn't hassle me for my job situation, nor does she bug me for rent. She just helps me with job lead and only requests that I help her out with house(which is not a problem).

Honestly I just feel blessed to have been able to see another birthday period. Especially the 25th(I'm an official Adult now!)
My Birthday was fun and my mom made me the coolest purple cake(my fave color). I'm sincerely happy to be here and I feel like a fool for wishing that I wasn't.

I just had to share this with y'all.
Thanks for reading :)
NV

Happy Belated Birthday! :D

And glad to hear you're feeling better (mentally/emotionally). Depression can be very dangerous, and I would never wish it on my worst enemy. :-/

happy birthday :)

it's great to hear that you are feeling better than you did earlier...suicial thoughts are not plesant things, especially when you can't control them.. :-/

I'm very glad that your outlook on life has changed, Null and Void. A change in perspective helped me overcome mine as well.

I wish you the best of luck.

I'm happy for ya', NV! :D

We are blessed as well for having you here with us. :)

Way to go Null :)

Happy birthday from a fellow purple addict.

Good luck with the job hunting and I hope 2004 is YOUR year.

Happy belated birthday, NV!

I hope things always go well in your life and that you continue to feel the same happiness that you do now. :)

:)Happy Belated Birthday, NullandVoid! Hang in there, Girl! :)

Happy belated Birthday. I wish you all the best. Attitude is a big part of life. I also hit a turning point in my life about the age of 25. One saying that kept going through my head, "That which does not break you, makes you stronger." I hope that these words will also help you as much as they had helped me.




Cat

Awwwwwe...y'all are so sweet., Thank you! :D ;D :)

YOU GOTTA HANG IN THERE!YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE THE THINGS I HAD TO OVERCOME!FOR SOME REASON IM STILL ALIVE AND STILL FIGHTING.Just take it slow and slowly things will develop for the better.To be honest,you should get a job to keep busy and it helps to get rid of the negative thoughts.Because thats when those negative thoughts come in your head when you are sitting around doing nothing.Hope this encourages you to live and feel good.

Happy B-Day!

Good Luck  :)